By Elizabeth Gray, Senior, Product Design
Elizabeth Gray (she/her/hers) is a senior studying Product Design. More than anything, she loves singing, playing music with her friends, and hyping up other artists in the community.
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Why did you choose to be an engineer?
I chose to be an engineer because I am obsessed with solving problems. Product Design specifically has given me the ability to do so both analytically and beyond.
As a senior in my final quarter at Stanford, I’ve been reflecting a lot on how I have changed between when I left my family before coming into Stanford in the fall of 2016 and now, again with my family, but four years later and in dramatically different circumstances. Of course I am older, have gained and lost some friends, and obviously “changed” from two quarters abroad. And while I have also become more confident academically, as paradoxical as it is for me to be saying this on the Tau Beta Pi website, I also feel like I have unlearned engineering.
Growing up, I always viewed my older sister as The Creative — active in theater, learning three languages, interested in international relations, and successful at all of it. To differentiate myself, I knew I had to place my interests elsewhere. So I became her STEM counterpart — pushing myself to take the higher-level math and science classes at my school, attending a summer camp to learn biology then another for electrical engineering, and even participated in my state’s Governor’s School of Engineering and Technology and even came into Stanford thinking I might study civil or mechanical engineering. Through all of this, I had fooled myself into thinking that was all I could be.
And then I discovered that was not all I had to be. A few weeks shy of getting my interdisciplinary B.S. in Product Design, I realize how much I had boxed myself into a certain way of thinking just because I thought I had to be that way. While there is still a part of me that loves the methodicism and scientific elegance of my mechanical engineering classes, there’s something about the ambiguity and disruption of design that I now find is inextricable to my sense of self. So when I say that I have unlearned engineering, what I really mean is that even though I am graduating with an engineering degree, I cannot express enough how grateful I am for Stanford to have rattled my perception of what it means to be an interdisciplinary engineer.